Inner Peace.

So, for the first time in years I am living by myself (no roommate), and I am single. This has been going on for the past few weeks, and it is something that I have wanted for myself since I decided that I wanted to get a divorce years ago. If you didn’t know, I was married for five years, and obviously it did not work out. My ex husband is a good man, but he just wasn’t the right man for me, and I was not ready to be a wife at the time. I just kept telling myself and him that I just wanted to be alone. I just wanted time to myself to figure out who Juliette is with no one else’s influence or judgment. I feel like when you are actually out on your own, and handling business by yourself & for yourself, you get to know yourself even more. 

Since I have lived by myself, I find that there are good days and bad days. Some days I am so happy that it is just me, and that I can just fully enjoy my own company. Other days I feel lonely, and like I need someone there. I go on social media and see happy couples and wonder why I don’t have that yet. Then I quickly remind myself that this is what I wanted, and when the right person comes along I will know. 

Throughout this whole process, I am getting to know myself better. I do love who I am, and the woman I am becoming. I am at peace knowing my strengths and my weaknesses. I know I have flaws, and I don’t try to hide them. At this point in my life, it’s either you love me how I am, or having nothing at all. I don’t feel the need to conform to anyone’s beliefs. I walk to the beat of my drum set. 

This feeling is a very liberating feeling, especially as a woman. Women are taught from a young age that they must be wifely, or motherly. I am not either at the moment, and I am find with that. I see so many women rushing to be a wife or a mom, and they haven’t enjoyed their own life yet. Once you become a wife and a mother the focus is not on you anymore. I believe that you need that time to just figure out who you really are, so that you may know what you really want. During my first marriage, I was just learning who I was. I was only 19 when I got married, so that was super young to be making that type of commitment in the first place. I was smart enough not to bring a child into that situation. 

I said all of that to say this, I am finding inner peace within myself. I enjoy my own company. I love being the master of my life. I want to be a complete person before I decide to fully commit to someone else, and I hope that he would have the same mindset too. I urge all of you to get to know yourself more. It is a beYOUtiful feeling. 

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11 thoughts on “Inner Peace.

  1. I must say reading this was very refreshing. It just shows the growth in your life. How we as individuals go through stages that can either make us or break us. But I must say I thank you for sharing. You’re truly a beautiful and spectacular woman and I hope you continue to grow and reach the pinnacle of your success and happiness in life

    1. Oh my gosh thank you so much@! That truly means alot to me. I just hope that with sharing my experiences, I am able to help and inspire someone else. Thank you for your kind words.

    1. Thank you so much for reading! & you’re welcome! If I can help at least one person out then I feel like my job is done. I appreciate you for reading. Please share it with others. Thank you!

  2. Thank you for sharing! I am going through the exact same thing. It is not easy being alone but it is worth it. I’m fresh out of my relationship so I’m going through the beginning stages of getting to know myself(the real me). However, knowing that I am not alone and my thoughts are normal makes me happy lol. Thank you!

    1. Thank you so much for reading! There’s many of us out there like this and, it’s very normal. Often times we jump right into a relationship, which isn’t always the best decision. Sometimes we should just take a step back and focus on ourselves. I’m glad I could help!

  3. Thank you for your sharing…A lot of people did same think.. so many women not problem for age.. you marry one boy means first what done your life.. you decide first and discussing to your life partner and this is the best way to the marriage life..

  4. I think it’s phenomenal that your choice is to find who you are 1st and then venture into deciding Marriage(again)/Motherhood would be for you. I too am divorce and I am 32 without children, again choices. I have the full capacity to handle that and more, but time with yourself is priceless. Getting acclimated to that is everything! I send you positive vibes in your new journey and wish you complete inner and outward peace. #completeexposureofyou

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